i want to be free!!!!

i want to be sexually free with tom. i can’t wait until these bumps are gone. my biggest worry is that the acid that she’s using is going to scar. it’s like pencil eraser sized and the same color… if they do scar i will be very devesated. i figure after they’re all gone after a few more treatments i can start using neosporin and hopefully that will lessen the scarring. anywho…….. on a lighter note. tonight i’m going to simons with alix, paul HOPEFULLY liz and brandon and maybe even jess. i really really really want tom to come too and i hope he gets off work in time. or at least by 10:30 so we can get there by 11ish.

Friday cannot come soon enough for me this week. That’s when i find out if i got the job as a flight attendant or not!!!! i really hope i got it. it will be soooo nice to have a real job. i’ve been drinking a lot of water so i can pass the drug test. i’m pretty sure i’m good. it’s been about 3 weeks i’m pretty sure…. and hopefully i won’t have to take it until after 4 weeks.

and oh how i am fallin for tom     he is the sweetest coolest hottest guy i have ever known. and he’s my boyfriend!!! he’s all mine! and he’s calling me!!! so he just said he might be able to get outta work by 9:30 tonight so he can go to simons with all of us. he’s very eager to go because i mentioned that dan and his friends might be there. they go there and i THOUGHT the cameo in was playing there (which is dans friends band) and so i figured he would go there. but anywho, i just checked and they’re actually NOT playing there tonight so i doubt they will be there. but on a good note, i’m glad tom is coming out with us anyways. i really want him to meet alix. paul on the other hand i’m kinda worried about. last time we all hung out paul was kinda all over me telling me how we should get married next year and how he’s ready for a relationship. i DO NOT want paul for ANY of that. i took it was a grain of salt, and was actually pretty flattered. but i don’t want paul being flirty with my in from of tom because i KNOW he will and i will feel uncomfertable. but if liz and brandon are there too i think i will be fine. i’ll talk to liz and tom pretty much the whole time.

well, tonight should be fun!!! i’m glad i don’t have to work in the morning. i hate fucking working lunches. i just called liz and i want to know if she still wants to go (i’m sure she does, i’m possitive she wants to see alix) but i want her to drive so i can have some drinks!

alright, i gotta shower if i wanna look SMOKIN!!!

~ by staticintheattic on April 11, 2007.