i got the job as a flight attendant!
now i have some work to do. i HAVE to get my GED. i HAVE to get my passport and i HAVE to get a “disposition” letter from the courthouse stating that my MIP was dismissed. so those three things MUST be done by may 1st. this next week i gotta get on it. i’ll have to schedule to take my GED which will cost me about $100 which REALLY sucks. i’ll have to fly to chicago to get my passport which i hope won’t cost me much and then i’ll have to call the courthouse first to see if they do that there and then drive all the way there to get the letter. so within the next two weeks all this must be done.
but hey, it’s worth it cuz i’m gonna be a flight attendant!! i’m really excited, but i’m really not going to like being gone for 2-4 days at a time. i suppose it will be alright, then tom won’t get sick of me. but when i am off work i’m going to want to hang out with him.
maybe i will go back to baker next semester and take the online classes there. i mean, it’s really just for me to learn the programs and all that and i can always transfer.
i’m in a lethargic mood today i don’t like it. i feel like i need to be up and movin around or something. i definately have to clean the house tomorrow after work before my mom gets home. this place is destroyed and i mean DESTROYED.
today i had a slightly awkward dinner with tom and his sister. i just felt really weird. i didn’t know what to say to her and i felt like everything i did say was stupid and that i was talking too much. but the food was good. and tom made me pay for it! he didnt even offer to pay for mine, which i’m getting used to. and i do not want to get used to that. but then again he knows i’m broke and we’re still goin to the bar tonight so i guess it evens out.
i really wouldn’t mind if we didn’t go out at all really. i would be content with chillin at my house and enjoying the fact that no one was here. we could listen to music and drink a bunch of wine or something. i’m not sure if he’d be up for that or what. and if i give him an option or if i say, “hey would you rather just save some money and chill at my place and listen to music and drink wine” i think he’d leave it all up to me and be like well what do you want to do?? i dunno… i think we both feel the same like that. i think he wants me to be like “look, we really don’t need to spend any money, let’s just chill at my place and get sloshed” or he wants me to say “hey i really wanna go to howells, let’s go” when really i would like it if he did the same! or i guess i could say, “i would rather stay in tonight and then go to howells tomorrow night when it’s quiet and less busy”. but ya know what? i don’t even know what I want to do! let’s do pros and cons:
stayin in: pro- save money pro- safer, no driving pro- no potential drama
goin out: con- spend money pro- could be more fun seeing people con- could be less fun seeing people.
fuck, i dunno. i’ll ask an online tarot card or something. haha.
well, this was a small update, i didn’t really go deep into anything. i’m so fucking lazy it makes me sick.
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